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releasethemermaids:

There is a fire in my fireplace, my mom came home early and surprised me by coming to pick me up… Break has been great so far.

My grandparents on my father’s side sent me a card in the mail…I have not seen these people in over a decade. They havent sent my brother or sister a card yet, and they dont know our last name. Whatever. They sent me a lot of money in the card and signed it…no message, no note. That bothers me. I’m sure alot of people would be fine with getting tons of money from their grandparents and not have to deal with the invasion of personal space, embarrasing gifts, etc. But I want that. I feel as though I deserve that. They cannot buy the title grandpa and  grandma, they have to earn those. It would be fair, I’d rather have their time and attention than their money.

I’m going to get a job next semester since the hours that I’m taking are significantly less than usual - Like 16 hours versus the 21 that I usually take. I need to start saving- I havent decided what for yet, but regardless I need to start saving. I could save the money for India or I could save it for an Apt and a car. I just dont know.

Since the latin party I’ve been thinking about my relationships with certain people in my life. I’m starting to realize that being realistic might be the best thing for me right now, romantically especially. I’m not going to be putting much more time and energy into these things…what ever happens - happens. Am I still willing, yes. Am I stressing, no.

I think I want to make clay presents this year, but the definitely wont be ready for any sort of holiday dinner any time soon. I cant even think of a design for Dylan or Brent…

 I understand where you’re coming from with the grandparent issue.  I hope you can balance a job with school well, trust me, it can be a major, major pain at times.  Good luck though :)